Moments Cherished

"Having someone to love is FAMILY.Having somewhere to go is HOME.And having both is a Real BLESSING" (:

Three days ago my family and I (without MOM) drove out to Utah for thanksgiving w/ the 2 brothers&their little family. This is a time I thought my whole family would finally be together in one place but no, my mom decided to stay because she hates long trips&she's totally terrified of being in the car driving through the snow! But, the drive was clear(: No problemo came our way. The ride out to Utah was uhm .. kinda .. nvm -__- I hate long road trips .. like I said, I just try to sleep it off. But no, not really this one, this time we drove with ALL my nieces&nephews! Lol .. enough said. Haha. But it was fun(: Anyways, so I called my brother Peni on the way to Utah and wish him a Happy Birthday, yeaup, his birthday was on thanksgiving day! Cool. My other brother Duke's birthday is on Valentines day! Phew! Man, frigg'n awesome, but JUNE BIRTHDAYS ARE BETTER! ;) But anyways .. lol. So when we got closer to Utah, my dad wanted to stop at Wendover and play some machine games(It was crazy freezing and he wanted to stop and play)-__- Lol. Buuut, he took awhile longer in the casino than usual so we were guessing he probably got lucky. haha. So I think he DID get lucky .. w/ $200 or something. lol. Anyways, Finally .. UTAH! Its so beautiful when everything is covered in snow .. everything just looks so clean(: I looove the snow! So we arrived at my brother's house and they were waiting(: Seeing my niece&nephews made my day! I miss my niece&nephews in Utah. So the whole day I got attacked by my nephew and followed by my niece! -__- We also hit the snow outside w/ my lil cousins and throw some snowballs. I had boots on but for sure it'll get wet when I run around outside .. so I busted a Tongan move and grab 2 plastic bags from the house and I put my foot(w/ boots on) in each bags. Lol! My lil cousins gave me the "WHAT THE HEKK ARE YOU DOING" look. But hey, rather keep my boots dry and my feet warm, their shoes was wet and their feet was freezing :p Anyways, my twin wanted a snow angel, so I did my part and fall back on the snow and form .. uh, some kind of a snow angel, but I didnt finish cus my cousin and my neph kept throwing snow balls at me .. this is the part were I had a huge snow ball flowing down my back .. I didnt have a hoodie on my sweater so that snow ball straight went down my back! Brrr. So here's my major fail for the day, my lil cousin and I went against the 2 boys. They got the front yard and we got the backyard. While the 2 boys ran around the other side of the house, my lil cousin&I ran the other way and found their mountain of snow! We straight ran and kick it down. Aaaand what did you know, as I went for my 2nd kick, my right foot went up and I straight slipped on my left and fell on my butt -__- Goshness. But it was fun falling .. Fail, but fun(: Anyways, went back into the house and had more fun w/ the lil ones. They end up drawing on my face and they drew on their faces to show what they drew on mine cus I didnt wanna get up to look in the mirror. ahaha! As the craziness continued, my other brother Duke&his lil family finally came to the house with the other half of the food. Time to start .. though, as I was about to go wash my face, my brothers said leave it .. Gash .. everyone all gathered in the kitchen and the kids sat in the middle(they had their own table) singing Happy Birthday to my two brothers (Peni&Semi) who had birthdays this month(: It was great seeing the family together in one room .. it was ALMOST perfect. M.I.A; Mom(back home)&Lei(in Aussie) =/ I sure do love my family with a King size passion! Im totally grateful to grow up in a wonderful family. Having them in my life is truly a great blessing =) So we ate the day away and just chilled after. Sucks cus we had to leave the next day(Friday), Saturday weather is going to be ugly, my dad didnt wanna drive in the snow or rain. So we said our goodbyes the next day, &as usual, I got some shoes&clothes from my in-law&my sister got some clothes for her daughter. In the end, we got together one more time to take a group picture .. only 5 of the siblings was in the group cus my brother Peau already left the building to explore some ladies, uh, I mean .. Utah;) ahaha! We packed our bags, we packed ourselves, and we were back on the road -__- What a thanksgiving! These kind of times are definately moments to cherish in our hearts forever(:  I LOOVVEEE MY FAMILY WITH ALL MY HEART! There are just some things in life money can't buy, my family .. definately one of them =) I would never trade for them for anything in the whole world! Why? I get to keep them in my life FOREVER .. they can be a headache, but hey, I just can't live with or without them =)

Dad&the Boys

Vachi&In-law Mia

Brodee Sam&Wife Mia

All the kids .. sing Happy Birthday to Peni (:

MMM .. Yummy Turkey Inga =)

 The 2 dorksss

Hurry Vachi .. Serve it up

Go Duke Goooo!

 Sorry Dad, ya gotta wait. Kids first. Lol

 Eat up!

 Other than my nephew's art skills on my face .. I was hungry -_-

 W/ Cousin Feina

 In-Law Jenn&bbyElsie =)

 Double the Troubleee ^_^

 My JohnnyBoo! <333

Line, Duke, Benji <333

 Boys playing Black Ops

W/ Craziness Saia

 Inga&the Bruno kidsss

 Benji Bear =)

 Tukuafu Family --> Fine, Fresh, Fierce .. We definately got it on Lock ;}

**A Passion

-"The artist's world is limitless.  It can be found anywhere, far from where he lives or a few feet away.  It is always on his doorstep" ~Paul Strand

Hint hint .. ART is my passion .. to be more specific, Drawing(: Whew, I dont know what to say but somehow I came through this website and as I scanned through it, I just got lost in the paintings! As I clicked through each picture .. I marvel at each painting like they're .. Real! I sit and try to read the painting and try to find its meaning. And the way the brush flows across the canvas just takes me from one end to the other .. it like, takes me to another whole different world. A world full of plain fantasy!! But this is different .. its painting, which means all sorts of colors! Drawing, drawing is another thing. Just the color of dead gray/black and white background. Buut, dont let this color of pencil or pen put you to sleep. Once that pencil or pen sets position on the paper .. this whole idea just pops straight into your head and you just go out of control with the paper creating this great image you never knew would come out to be .. plus, drawing is the starting point for a canvas to be filled with colors;). Drawing for me is another way to express who I am as an artist. Its another way for me to express my feelings in paper. Its also just another way to show my passion for art(: I've been drawing since the day I could hold a pencil in my right hand! The way I stay focused and steady on the paper is .. indescribable. I just draw away and draw whatever comes to mind. Its more different when I have to focus on an object because I have to get every single angle down. But when its from srap .. the idea comes naturally(: Drawing is my way to get away from life when I need a break .. once I get a good grip on that pencil, theres this invisible bubble that just forms around me, shutting everything out {unless I get disturbed by someone, my invisible bubble bursts -__- LOL}. Anyways, another thing, if you come across an art piece, &if you get stuck staring blankly at that art, your studing that piece. You get so interested and you would die to find out the explanation for that certain piece, little do you know, by just looking at the piece, the explanation is already there! You just have to look closer and study the pattern. The more you pay close attention .. you'll understand the meaning of the piece(: "As far as I am concerned, a painting speaks for itself.  What is the use of giving explanations, when all is said and done?  A painter has only one language"  ~Pablo Picasso. Im not the greatest artist in the world, not close to being the greatest, but I sure do have a great passion for art(: Overall, art is another part of me, my life. Its a trait that ill never learn to let go. It flows naturally in my blood and theres no way I can ever get tired of it. It sure is a talent im proud to have. Shoo, once my fingers hold on to that pencil, the magic begins =) <3

PS: This is the link to the site I looove to explore! Its totally another world you'd love to discover! CLICK ON IT&YOU'LL SEE WHAT I MEAN =)

http://www.josephinewall.co.uk/art_gallery.html   {ENJOY!}

*Lucky Cancer

**Cancer rules the Fourth House of the Zodiac, known as the “House of Family and Home.” This house represents the effects of our earliest experiences and of the nurturing we receive as children, and the way this anchors and guides our lives. Anyone lucky enough to be within a Cancerian’s inner circle enjoys a secure sense of comfort and belonging. Cancer is a water sign associated with the moon, a combination that leads to shifting moods and deeply felt emotions. Though they may sometimes appear impervious on the outside, perhaps even irritable, inside they’re all heart, kind and loving to the core.

Info;;

-Element: Water

-Fourth House: Home&Family

-Key Planet: Moon

-Strenght: Ability to Nurture Others

-Weakness: Fear of the Past Repeating the Future

    When I first heard of this thing called 'Horoscope' (6 yrs ago), I was on the L-0-S-T mode -_- I didn't really understand why would anyone want to ask me "What is your horoscope?" or "Whats your Zodiac sign?" When I found out and really got to understand the meaning of my zodiac sign, I got sorta scared because its explanations are true! Looking back at your life and comparing what these signs explains, they actually DO relate to you! Creepy but its pretty cool. Buuuut, when I found out I was Cancer .. I was like .. Cancer? Why can my sign have a cooler name!? Lol! But I like it(: It fully explains ME and I can relate to it .. hey, I LOOOVE CRAB .. they're delicious ;) heheh!

Cena has Left the Building

*John Cena

Hmm, so tonight .. Monday Nov 22, 2010 .. Cena has left the building for sure =( Damn, he's the reason why I get excited every Monday night before 9:00pm! I guess .. gaaah! Gaassshhh!! He sure is a pretty big tough kid. Lalalooovee you Cena! Keep moving forward and stay actin .. people will be wantin to see ya face(: Still wishin I could meet him, just once. Maybe .. one day, who knows(: Anwyas, Cena, you cant hear me but stay Forever Strong. Ya fans will forever stay root'n for you .. as well as your #1 timer(: See you on the screens bbyBoy! <3

The Cenation .. is Over .. the FanLove .. Never Ends =)

A month to say your Thank Yous(:

November: A Time to *Mesmerize about the good things in LIFE(:

Its November .. again(: Its a time to sit back and mesmerize about the blessings we recieve from our Heavenly Father this year. This year for me, has its tough times .. yet, everything happens for a reason righ? .. Our Heavenly Father is forever working in his mysterious ways that we sometimes may or may not understand. This year happiness filled the air, food filled the table, luck has come one way or the other, families reunite&families lost, tears has flown, broken hearts has been healed, hearts healed broke once again, madness broke free, jobs lost, homes taken away, great&ugly weathers, new beautiful temple weds, game wins&game lose, wings gained, new borns, dreams made come true, new Gospel brothers and sisters, young ones called to serve, good&bad choices are made, lesson well learned, new experiences, mistakes are made, other halfs found, successful programs, grown by an inch, gained&lose by a pound or two, gifts are givin about, laughters became louder, stories became more interesting, and so many many many more blessings. Some has its ups&downs yet they happen for a reason that we find out later on in our lives(: Im so grateful that im still breathing, gettin ready to experience a new year. 18 years has passed, going for my 19th. 2010 was half great&half .. egh.

This year i've learned new things I love to include in my young adult life and forever hold them in my heart. This year I've experienced my first relationship(: I've made some choices that I definately do not regret. I got a camera for xmas and my bestfriend lost it -_- I finally went to my first high school dance -Prom! I never worked harder in all my high school years! I finally graduated from high school .. phew! I celebrated my 18th birthday at Youth Conference --> A week ill never forget! I made some many more awesome friends(: I lost my dearest grandma Vasi. I lost my handsome brave young nephew Saia. I lost my best friend, my bub, Jared. I got yelled at by my leader .. SCRAZY! I went to my very first big football game - NINERS! I got so mad at my mom for not letting me go to certain things. I've jinxed so many plans because I get too excited -__- Major fail! I kept in touch with my journal. I never helped clean the chapel so much in my life(: I made a garden in front of our chapel for my project, ofcourse, I had help(: I've never babysat SOOO MUUCCHHH .. yet I learned to love it(: These are part of the things I did this year. Whatta year aye. There are things in life that we would want to rewind and re do .. but hey, what would we learn from it if we never make the choices we made. Life sometimes sucks in some ways, but hey, whats the suprise. Life is difficult at times, we just gotta keep our head up and move forward. Look back at those difficult times and all we see is pain. Thats the past, live the present, so better times can come in the future. Life has its good times as well, now those are the times we would want to live in and never leave .. (sigh) 'em good memories. Than again, we must move forward and make new great memories righ?(:

Im so grateful to have a family who loves me and has done so much for me this whole 18 years. Without their accusations, advices, yellings, ... loving words (lol) I wouldn't be the person I am today. Because my dad let me make my own decisions [he dont tell any of us kids what to do with our life .. literally] I learn from the choices I make and I face the consequences that comes along with it. Because my mom is both the parent in the house, Boss, my teenage life kinda suck but im glad of how she's raising me. I learn a lot from my mom, well, motherly things that is(: Overall, im thankful for my parents unconditional love for me and my siblings(: My siblings set the examples for me as well. I have 6 older siblings to learn from and I am learning very well. Im so grateful for the Gospel. To grow and learn of the church. Not knowing the Savior and the reason of our living, I would be lost and confused in this life as some people are now a days. Im lucky to be born into a family who is part of Gospel. Because of that, im thankful to my parents for raising me in the church and giving me the heads up of becoming a strong young woman and maybe someday I can stand on my own two feet and live my own life. Im thankful to know of the Book of Mormon and the Plan of Salvation. Here, I gain great knowledge of the reasons of our living and How to live with these reasons(: Im grateful for awesome friends who stood beside me through the thickest&the thinest. For being there when I need them during my troubled time. For lending their ears when I have major bad or good news. For taking time off to comfort me on my time of needs. Im thankful for my Heavenly Father for watching over me and my family all these years. I hope he'll continue watching and taking care of us for another 18 years and more;) Im grateful for many things. Be thankful for what you have because there are others who wishes to have what you got. Never take anything in your life for granted .. always be grateful. I, myself complain sometimes .. but I try to remember that I sure am luckier than some other people who would want live my life. <333

A time to get together with our family surrounding 'em big Turkeys&other delicious food! For tongans, 2 big PUAKAS! lol! Looking forward for the many more blessings about to comeee =)

If he only knew ..

So there's this little INVISIBLE word that I was afraid I would meet up with again. Whats this ugly lil word? INFATUATION. I've met this lil word in the beginin of this year .. it was kinda annoying but I just liked the feeling of it(: But .. the trick is, just make sure you're infatuated with the right guy -__- I was infatuated with this guy .. yes, I'll say he had the same feeling for me .. but maybe more than I had it for him. Lol. But anyways, I was done with it a couple months ago. I had to say goodbye to that lil word, also to him too =/ It wasn't easy ofcourse .. but since then, I was hoping not to bump heads with this lil word again. Until .. aaah. Man, I think im getting there -__- I really dont want to but I cant help it! Stupid word! Okay, ill share with you a little, but not fully detailed as my journal(; So why is this lil word creeping back into my .. young adult life .. because of this certain person. So lets say he's the same guy from my OMGOSH post. For some reason, when this word creeps back .. it drags him along with it. Its buggin the heck outta me. Why? Because I dont want to deal with this word again .. I dont want 'us' to go farther than friends. If I go into more details some people here might figure out who he is .. some already have but thats because I told em already;) But anyways, you know one thing that I hate .. liking someone and your so scared to make a move thinking he/she might reject you (in my case its obviously a HE.lol). Or maybe they want to stay friends but you just can't get rid of that feeling for that person. Another thing .. why can't people just go all out and tell those they like or maybe love how they feel. I should be doing this, but hey, I have a reason not to so shush it ;P lol. Anyways .. this certain person .. idk, its just different talking to him. Theres just something about him that just keeps pulling me to him. BOO! Cut the rope! I wanna walk forward! Lol! But when I see him, theres this lil thing inside me that just erks my nerves! It works its way up to my face and just put a huge smile there .. what bugs? I can't help smiling when I see him or hear his name. I've thought and done the same thing to that person in the past .. but this one .. its just .. Different(: In a good way. My twin once told me .. "You'll never know unless you try" <-- is this right sis? Yeah, I think so! lol. But I don't want to try .. maybe just not yet. Ill just not know .. for a lil bit longer(:

Writings Found(:

So today I was just going through our computer documents and I 'moused' through some writings I did for church&school. So I was reading it and man, I didnt know how good the writing was! Lol .. not that Im smart .. I sure do try my best(: So here are some of my writings that I found and yes, they're poems .. or I just made em rhyme for free -__- Lol! Well, Enjoy!(: I sure did enjoyed it .. Lets start from my X-mas talk(:


#1-Christmas Talk:

Ding dong ding dong ring

December 25^th is officially Christmas Eve

A season of gift exchanging, gathering, and joy

A day to remember the birth of a young baby boy

His name is Jesus Christ, the Son of God

The One in many Christmas stories and Christmas songs

In this time of year, many exciting gifts are given about

But let’s not forget the wonderful gift throughout

God gave His son and His son gave his life

That each of us might have the gift of Eternal life

Without Christ there would be no Christmas

Without Christmas there can be no fullness of joy within us

There’s Christmas in the home within the family

With lights sparkling as bright among the fence or around a tree

There’s Christmas in the church within members that we see

We stick together talk together always filling the room with glee

Christmas is the joyous and memorable time of the year

It is also the day our Savior was born in lowly manger

A child like you and me born of innocence and fair

Yet turned out to be the Son of God and King to the heir

Yet, in today’s day and time it’s easy to lose sight

Of the true meaning of Christmas and that one special night

When we go shopping, we say “How much will it cost?”

Then the true meaning of Christmas somehow become lost

The children awaits for the presents on Christmas day

Never thinking of the child whose bed was made of hay

Every time we look up into the beautiful night sky

We would catch a glimpse of a star shining bright on high

That is a faithful reminder of that night so long ago

The night of our Saviors birth that we all have heard and know

Yes, Christmas is a season to celebrate and sing with cheer

But it’s also a time to recognize the reasons why we are here

A short story I will share with you my family and friends

A story that just might not have an end

I grew up in the island of Tonga in the small town of Mau’fanga

With a wonderful family of Luseane and Fanga

Every Christmas year is a time to celebrate

My mom and I will start to take out the lights to decorate

A mother and daughter moment that still goes on today

But, a family moment when we are done with our day

The night comes and we turn on the lights

The family would watch and enjoy as they shine so bright

Little did I know, my family wasn’t the only ones enjoying the view

Also our neighbors would stand across the street and watch as a group

One group would point and smile

The other would point and say “The house is on fire”

To me the Christmas lights brought happiness to the neighbors

But now that we are here, I wonder how Ma’ufanga feels without us there

I miss those days but they would never be forgotten

Those wonderful faces with smiles that’ll never be broken

Every Christmas year I think of this time

Not only that, but also of our Savior’s time

Remember the story of the Savior’s birth

Without him, we wouldn’t be here on this earth

Nourish the story and keep it in mind

It’s the only reason why there’s a Christmas time

 #2-English Paper: Book Review;

Zoom, click, flash, print, gone

My book is called Flash Burnout by L.K. Madigan

In this book you will read about friendship, love, and loyalty

The main three genres that young teenagers can apply to their daily vitality

It starts with the 15 yr. old Blake

Nice, funny, &making sure nothing goes in stake

And Shannon; a total girlfriend, who loves Blake very much

And Marissa a good fellow friend who needs Blake to stay in touch

Click, Blake caught a street person on his camera

Print, it came out to be Marissa’s long-lost addicted meth mother

Because of a shutter release, a picture was caught

This one picture turned Blake’s world throughout

Blake’s participation in the ensuing drama

Opens up a world of trouble for both him&Marissa

Yet, he spends the next few months trying to reconcile,

The conflicting roles of a boyfriend and a friend stacked in a pile

Blake started spending more time with Marissa helping her bring her mother back

&Shannon became unhappy with the situation, she couldn’t act

 With Shannon loving Blake & Marissa needing him

How could Blake capture a picture of both of them

This book is great for teens like you and me

Read it, find out, and you will see

#3- One of my 'I DONT REMEMBER THIS TALK' .. talk;

What is the meaning of Faith to me and you?

“If ye have Faith, ye hope for things which are true” (Alma 32:21)

In order for your faith to lead you to salvation,

It must be centered in the Lord Jesus Christ whom is in heaven

You can exercise your faith in Christ when you know he truly exists,

Knowing who he really is and a knowledge that you are willing to live his ways.

Have Faith by relying completely in the Lord Jesus Christ

Including trusting in his infinite power, love, &intelligence.

Also believe that he knows all things & believe his teachings,

And remember that he has experienced all our pains,afflictions,& infirmities.

He knows how to help you rise above your daily difficulties

“And he will take upon him death…that he may know according to the flesh how to succor his people according to their infirmities” (Alma 7:11-12)

Faith is much more than a passive belief,

You can express your faith through your actions&the way you live.

Having faith in Jesus Christ can motivate you to follow his perfect example

&it can lead you to do good, keep the commandments, and be humble.

Your faith can help you overcome temptations&repent of your sins
“Teach them to withstand every temptation of the devil, with their faith in the lord Jesus Christ” (Alma 37:33).

According to your faith, the Lord will work mighty miracles

&pour many blessings to you and your families every time you call.

Faith can give you strength to face your hardships w/ courage

You live by your faith, and you will continue standing on a good stage.

I grew up with a strong testimony of the church&I still have it today

This testimony came from the faith I had since I was 3 in nursery.

My faith is strong&it’s what I live by everyday at every hour,

I’m here to represent the Savior by being a good example to others.

We have the agency to choose&we must choose to do wise things

Not only for the lord but for yourself and your families.

Exercise your faith through prayer, church, &reading the scriptures

Three simple ways to start gaining your faith and believing in the Savior.

And now as I said concerning faith – faith is not to have a perfect knowledge of things; therefore if ye have faith ye hope for things which are not seen, which are true. (Alma 32:21)

^^^I SERIOUSLY DONT REMEMBER THIS TALK! AHAHA^^^

#4-Another English Book Review;

Her name is Willow, she’s only a teenager

She’s trapped in a world of guilt, don’t blame her

She was just like you and me when it happened

In that one rainy night, just when the car crashed

She didn’t mean to loose control&loose both her father&mother

Not only that but also the close relationship between her and her brother

Moving into his place means new life and new friends

But it wasn’t enough because she kept thinking of the past

With a blade that’s silver yet so sharp

It can get rid of such past with just a cut

It didn’t matter how deep or how long

It just made her relieved but not strong

No one knows about this awful secret

But when she met Guy, she was no longer distressed

Complicated as she is, the first to know, the first to care

Guy did understand such despair

Did she overcome the past?

Did she earn her brother’s love?

How did Guy help Willow stop her cuts?

Check the book, read it, and find out!!


#5-Last English Book Review;

In Thalia Chaltas’ first novel “Because I am Furniture”

352 pages story of a girl named Anke who is often ignored

Her father, who is an abuser, attacks her brother and sister

But not Anke, NO, because she is furniture

The youngest of 3 is an invisible witness in a house of horror

Often feels trapped, trapped in a little corner

Because of her fear, she often stays quiet

If she continues this silence at home, who’s going to act?

Not her mother, no, the sweet, the meek, and the mild

Not her siblings, no, the innocent, the teenagers, yet still Childs

Now it’s up to Anke the quiet, the kind, and the youngest

To stop her father the abuser, the monster, and the BEAST

Volleyball, a place where Anke can feel confident and free

A sport where she could yell and shout with glee

Why volleyball? How could volleyball change her life?

Because of volleyball, she bellows with a voice thick as ice

She had found a voice she never knew existed inside of her

With this voice, anyone could hear her, &hopefully at home by her father

But it might take awhile for Anke to take action towards this monster

A monster that comes home everyday beating her brother or sister

What a life to live at a home;a life full of grief and pain

The only ways to escape this misery is attending school&meet with friends

Another is to be lost in the eyes of a boy you adore

That one soccer guy who gives you butterflies as he walks through the doors

Kyler, tall, handsome, smart, & an athletic young freshman

Can make Anke melt with a smile and a touch of his hand

Still, when school ends, volleyball begins.

When volleyball ends, anxiety begins

Anxiety hits as Anke gets ready to go home,

 Just to face more cries & more sorrows

Anke becomes tired of this painful environment under one single roof

She wants to make an end to this madness and expose the truth

With thoughts of what to do to end such madness

It started with a project plan that was set with a friend

Angie, annoying and stubborn, yet beautiful & young

If it wasn’t for this friend, nothing would be done

One day as Anke walks into her father’s office to meet up with Angie

She finds him in a position that wasn’t suitable to see

Because of what she saw that day, her feelings became words

Words that set a family free yet put Anke in a hospital bed

With Anke’s words and action, there is happiness and joy within her family

But she still regrets the fact that she didn’t take action the day she saw this misery

If you are interested in poems, read this Young Adult Fiction

I sure enjoyed it, so check it out as soon as you can.

#6-Another .. Book Review?Lol;
Dreamland is a secret story of a teenager's life
Her name is Caitlin and she lives in strife
She lived a normal life with a family, a sister, a friend
But this life came tumbling down; about to end
Her sister Cass made a choice to run away
Making minutes feel like days
The family went through the pain and the sorrow
It made Caitlin feel as if there will be no morrow
Until she met Rogerson Biscoe, the guy of her dreams
He makes her feel like life was not as it seems
When she's with him she feels complete and less stressed
Because he's brilliant, compelling, but yet dangerous
Caitlin wanders in a dreamland of drugs and nightmare
Always awaiting Rogerson's sudden fist to fly in the air
The bruises and pains kept her distant from those she loved
Because of this it sets her on a different path
The friends she adores and the parents she admire
Became invisible in her life setting her heart on fire
She was finally different as she always wanted to be
Different but attached to her boyfriend's life, her sweetie
The life she was entering was a macabre nightmare
She wanted someone to listen and save her from despair
But what kept her from sovereignty was being without him
Because he became a drug with eyes as dark as her dream
Being with Rogerson there was only pain and agony
But being without him made Caitlin feel incomplete&unhappy
This book is excellent for teenagers who lives this life
If you read this book you'll feel this character's strife

So here are just the few that I found .. the interesting ones that is. The rest are ESSAYS .. boo! ahaha! But I hope you enoyed them(: <333 Maybe theres more, ill post it up when I find em(:

"God only goes for Strong Families who can handle it" -Gbaby

Hhm .. So my brother Penisimani got rushed to the ER a couple weeks ago due to a severe headache (Sinusitis). We didn't know it was that serious .. we just assumed that he works too much and all that and that he just needs rest&EAT! My mom went over to Utah 2 weeks ago to check up on him .. he was good. He came back home and my mom flew back home a couple days later. Semi&his little family drove out to Utah for a funeral the day my mom came home and they came back telling us that my brother was rushed to the ER again .. same reason .. damn headache. Just this week we got a phonecall that he was getting a head surgery =( It was a tumor that has burst and the bleeding was the reason for his major headache. But I guess they wouldn't do the surgery on his head but through his nose? So they could suck out those lil things in his forehead. So when we heard about the news we drove to Utah Monday night to make it for his surgery the next morning =/ I HATE ROADTRIPS! -__- I get car sick but hey, we dont know what might happen .. so I hopped in the ride. I was texting my twin and I told her why we are going to Utah .. that's when she said "God only goes for Strong Families who can handle it" (or something like that. Lol). I love my twin(: We got to Utah Tuesday morning. My brother's surgery starts at 8:30am and we got there around 10 ish. We thought he went in already so instead of driving straight to the hospital, we turned to my brother's house to shower up. Than we rushed to the hospital cus my sis-in-law called that they were still waiting for us    -__- But when we got there he was taken in 20 mins before we got there =( Buuut, my parents and the inlaws got to see him. Good news .. he will be okay and out in no time(: Phewww! So that night my dad&I went to the hospital to see him .. he looks good(: Sitting in the hospital watching my brother laying there, sure did remind ME of when I was laying in the hospital .. Egh .. I hate hospitals. But this guy is a pretty tough guy. He can fight anything off. My brother has been through a hard time this year .. he was taken to the hospital for a knee surgery? Earlier this year .. and he lost his son [Baby Saia] this summer. Now this? I can tell how strong he is and how hard he's trying to fight it off. Watching his wife helping out with whatever he needs made me realize how lucky I am to have an awesome sister-in-law to watch&take care of my skinny twin and HE'S lucky to have her as a wife. They've stand side by side .. sharing the hardship together since the day they said "I Do". What a strong son my mom has raised and what a tough guy my brother has come to be(: So the good news is .. if he just might get lucky, he'll get to go home tomorrow [Friday] =) I love my brother with a King size Passion(: His little family has went through the worst but they stand strong together :") Im sure Heavenly Father has a great blessing for them ahead. I guess his little family IS a strong lil group that can handle anything Heavenly Father throws at them .. Bad or Worse, their family will always be strong through it all. One thing my sis-in-law and I got out of his surgery though is that his nose is finally straight (I guess he broke it at rugby). The joke is that my brother has finally had a nose job(: LOL. But anyways, I sure do love all my family& .. ESPECIALLY my siblingsss =) <333

Sunday Talk .. VIRTUE (:

Today, 14 Nov 2010, was our young women program. Sorta excited to share my talk .. I looooove this value(: Idk .. theres just something in this value that screams to me. So my young women wore puletahaz today and they looked beautiful(: I love my girls w/ a king size passion. Our program went great .. their talks was very touching .. but our musical .. uhm, different story. Lol .. when it was MY turn .. I was excited! But .. when I went half way through my talk .. nerves started to kick in -__- Its always doing this to me .. goshness .. but overall .. im sure I did good .. I hope. lol. So here's my talk .. reminds me of my x-mas talk. I tried to write it in a poetic way .. and make sure it makes sense at the same time. hehe .. ENJOY! <333

The topic that was given to me to share with you today is on Virtue

The color of pure gold and it is the last of the values

My favorite value in the whole young women personal progress

Because of its gold color and the important message it brings us

What is the message behind this golden topic?

To be morally clean, spiritually and physically, unlike our attic

If we want to return to our Heavenly Father we have to be clean

If we live a virtuous life, we’ll recognize the wonderful blessings it brings

When we were born into this earth, we were innocent and pure

We knew nothing of this world, other than eating and sleeping I’m sure

When we turn eight, we get baptized in white, I sure did

Wearing white made me feel clean, feel like an angel, a moment ill never forget

Growing up, I see my siblings get married in the temple w/ wives in a white dress

A new goal I set up, to walk down the aisle in a long white gown, that’ll be my moment

But first I have to live a clean and pure life

That IS if I want to reach my goal of becoming a good wife

This topic is important for our youth now a days

Because life now is full of temptations, Satan is the hunter and we are the prey

This is why we have our parents to guide and help keep us on the right path

A path to a brighter future, a path that’ll lead us to our other half

Speaking of other half, if we want to enter and get sealed in the house of the lord

We must be true to our divine identity and establish patterns of thought and behavior based on high moral standards

Elaine S. Dalton once said, “Before a young man leaves on his mission,

You ask them what are some qualities they look for in a young woman

They might mention a quality based on worldly standards such as looks

But after 2 years on the mission fields, they did not just serve the Lord but have been purified by the Holy Ghost

They would come home searching for an eternal companion

For a virtuous young man will always be attracted to a virtuous young woman”

To become virtuous, we have to keep ourselves morally clean

It includes being sexually pure and having clean thoughts and minds

“Be thou an example of the believers”, Paul once advised Timothy

In conversation, in word, in spirit, in charity, in faith, and in purity

When we are virtuous, we have the Holy Ghost to lead, guide, and comfort us

We are children of our Heavenly Father. He loves us and we love him and he wants us to be virtuous

(Testimony) AMEN

So there .. I sure do enjoy words that rhymes. Lol. So the rest of the day was pretty awesome. Left to Pesi's house afterwards .. eat than walk. Walk all over Bruno .. it was kind of a back and forth walk. But it felt soooo good! Felt like I was back to my Sunday routines .. Church, home, eat, out the door, WALK WALK WALK! Anywhere .. just walk! Lol. But one hilarious thing we got from this walk was when me&Pesi entered the Liquor store(yes, we brake the Sabbath in America =( ). So anyways, we got 4 ice cream bars and we took it to the cashier .. he was Asian ..  the total was $6.67. Pesi only had $6 bucks .. so here's the convo ..

Pesi: "Aw man, I only got $6 bucks"

Me: (To the cashier) "Can you hook us up? Pls?"

Pesi: "Yeah .. its hot .. WE'RE hot!"

Me: "Yeah .. can you hook us up? C'mon"

Cashier: "How much you got?"

Pesi: "$6 bucks"

Cashier: "Fine .. its okay..bring 67 cents next time"

Me: "Aww..THANK YOU!"

(While walking towards the door ..)

Pesi: (Yelling) "Thank  you mister!"

Me: (Yelling) "Yeah .. thank you! Ill tell all my friends to come shop here .. and to bring 67 cents!!!"

Pesi: "DUDE! SHUTUP!"

Me: (White girl style) "You shutup!"

hahahahah! We're never going back there again! ahaha

Ofcourse .. our walk was fun fun fun! More talkings and laughter(: I love Sundays(: Overall .. long walks are great!(: Had to hurry home to my Oreos&Chip Ahoy!(: